Yesterday was a big day! I met with Dr. S for the first time since starting on the meds. I have to admit… I went in ready to be on the defense. I was expecting some clashes over our respective visions of the future.
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Eldest was sick. Babysitter couldn’t come. Ended up bring both with me. (Eldest daughter, 8 and youngest – my boy – 3. I need “Blog names” for them and my other daughter, 6. How about Whiney, Screachy, and Yelly. No?) Thought it would be a disaster. They. Were. Awesome.
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First off, he agreed to the low dosage. (Since he orignally wanted me STARTING at double this dose, I
had to have smelling salts after I fainted was pleasantly surprised.)
He was… almost… impressed? I’m trying to describe it. He told me how patient, motivated, and hard working I was! (Yup, first time in 32 years THOSE words have been used to describe me! I looked shocked and he added with a smile, “On the meds”.) He said most people would be just wanting more drugs so it would be easier. (Dude, I never said I didn’t WANT them, just that I didn’t think I NEEDED them!) He also noticed how I’m getting such a large EMOTIONAL benefit from it! Um, yeah. This starting not to hate myself? REALLY. COOL.
My other concern was his opinion on me staying at home with my darlings. His previous comments (both to me and written in his report) led me to believe he wasn’t happy about that. But it ended up not being an issue at all! Yes, he did talk/HIGHLY encourage me to make sure I’m out there, taking classes (he was thinking auditing college courses, I was thinking a photography class. Meh. Details.) and just overall making sure I had ME time and some mental stimulation. (Doesn’t every mom want that? Don’t most moms NOT get that?) We talked about future plans (he encourages me to up the dose when I start back to school; I didn’t mention I would love to be OFF them by then. Meh. Details.)
My one disappointment was that I kind of wanted advice and ideas on how to utilize my new found focus. He offered up some book ideas, which was nice. (The first one was ADHD for Dummies. Later, I was writing them down and asked “Which book did you say? For dummies or an idiot’s guide? Am I a dummy or an idiot?!”) I wouldn’t have minded more to go with (some goals, maybe a “homework assignment”) but I’m not going to worry about it.
SO, there we go. A lot of my ADHD journey drama is coming to an end, and the good stuff is yet to come! I look forward to using this blog for more then just babbling about this, but help me out please! If you read this, please tell me what you like/don’t like/want to see more/less of. I’m having fun with this (well, not the design part, that’s making me cranky) but want some new and fresh ideas!
Thanks again for reading!