I’m typing this before I leave. I’ve gone from super excited and hopeful to scared out of my mind!! Seriously, I don’t even want to go. ARGH!
Well, I got over the panic and went. And I got answers!
So I got myself in and sat trying to knit as I waited. He came out and asked if I ever just sat, and commented on how I’m always doing something (last two times I was reading). Later, he mentioned that some people (namely without ADD/ADHD can just sit. And like, do nothing. Totally foreign concept to me. But I digress.
We sat down and got comfortable and he looked at me and said, “You’re interesting”. Ummm…. Thanks?
Next I got some papers, to review the results of the test. The first 2 were a bunch of numbers that made no sense to me. He talked about them and I just kind of smiled and nodded and thought it didn’t sound bad. Maybe even good! Then came his written evaluation which he went through that sounded a lot like, “Woa woa woa (picture the Charlie Brown adult) woa highly intelligent woa woa woa superior intelligent range woa woa woa above average”… HEY! This was sounding GOOD!!
So, it turns out, I’m smart. Like, seriously smart. Like, I should have been able to hold down some good A’s in high school and college. WOW! This is good, right?!?!
Yeah see, um… if you *able* to get A’s and you only get B’s and C’s… that’s a bit of a red flag.
Next was the Amen Adult ADD scale. You need 20 minimum in the significant range for diagnosing ADD. Guess my number?
Go ahead! Guess!
Heh heh… Yeah, sooooo…. That clarified that!
I also used some coping mechanisms, which is good. (Who knew talking to myself was good! YEAH!)
So, in conclusion, I’m officially diagnosed “ADHD”. Yup, we have the “H” thrown in, although it’s more of a “mentally hyper”. (I’m won’t lie, I had to try hard not to giggle at that!) His recommended course of action is a stimulant medication. He talked about some of the ways it would help, since I just can’t imagine it, you know? (DUDE! I’ll only have **1** conversation/thought in my head at a time!!!!! I’m worried it will get lonely…)
I went straight from there to get an appointment with my doctor, and have one set up for March 15th. I know that he’s not a big fan of this unless necessary, but it sounds like it is. (Even though he said it was “mild”.) What I would like to talk to him about is the possibility of trying out different natural ways to deal with this too. Omega 3s, essential oils, diet, exercise. But the catch is I can’t even begin to imagine that without the help of medication first. Right now, you can set up the healthiest regimen but I won’t be able to do it. Best case? I’m able to nail down the habits I would need and then get off the meds. Worst case? I need to be on them for good.
So, there we have it! It’s taken about 2 months but I DID IT.
THANK YOU to all those out there for your support, encouragement, and kind words! I can’t tell you how much easier it made this journey (that really, is just in it’s beginning stages!). I hope you’ll all continue to come back because I will trying to track my progress here.
I’m going to leave you with song called “Watershed” by the Indigo Girls… ENJOY!